The struggle of realising you’ve chosen the wrong path – again

Today I finally did it. I opened up Gmail and started writing that dreaded email to my professor, telling her that I’ve decided to drop out. I had to make several pauses and look at the words I was typing down. I’ve managed to take the wrong path in life – again. How did this happen? Just a few months ago I was overly excited about this programme. I sat in front of this very same professor during the admission interview and went on and on about how I really wanted to become an archivist. I was leaving the room so excited that she had to pull me back down to Earth and remind me that not everyone will be accepted, no matter how much they want it. But I had no doubt I would be accepted. I aced the interview, like I almost always do. A few weeks later I got accepted and I was so incredibly proud of myself. I told everyone about it. Finally I had found my thing and I was gonna become something! An archivist! “What’s that?” people asked. “Well I’m gonna sit in an office or an archive and sort documents, kind of…”. It sounds so strange to me now. Archiving? What the hell was I thinking?

I was thinking that what I need is a somewhat easy job that pays me enough to not have to worry about money, and where I wouldn’t have to rely on my creativity too much. I would lie if I told you that the decision to drop out was easy, despite the fact that underneath I knew all along. Just scrolling down this blog and reading about how I came up with the idea of applying to this University programme makes it pretty obvious that I had doubts long before I even applied, but I chose to ignore them. The first few weeks of school I had panic attacks on my way there, every single day, but I chose to supress them. I told myself that it was because I had just stopped taking my medication, that it was a lot of new things to take in and a new environment. But as the weeks went by I realised that it’s not about that. I like the atmosphere at school. I like my professors. I like my classmates. I loved the conversations we had outside of the classroom about stress, purpose and life in general, but I had no interest in the subjects taught in class, except for the political and philosophical aspects of it.

“[…] one day you wake up and realise that you are angry and sad and frustrated over a job you didn’t even want in the first place.”

An archive is a cultural institution alongside museums and libraries that have been the same for a very long time. The idea that I could make a change and develop this cultural institution into something more interesting and sustainable is what kept me going. But after some time I realised that the idea that I alone could be a breath of fresh air in this institution and somehow manage to change things up is extremely far-fetched. Especially since it’s an administrative job where every decision goes through someone higher up the ladder that most of the time has no real understanding of the work you’re doing, which leads to frustration and ultimately resentment. Then one day you wake up and realise that you are angry and sad and frustrated over a job you didn’t even want in the first place. And it’s not that I don’t think I could do it, it’s the realisation that I don’t want to.

I feel extremely priviledged and self-centered when I tell people about my decision. Like I think I’m better than everyone else for wanting to pursuit something bigger. Well I’m here to tell you that I’m not. I do think that I’m capable of more than sorting and handling documents, but in no way do I think I’m better than my classmates or people who do other kinds of honest work. We’re all good at different things, and we’re all interested in different things. But the bottom line is that if we want to help people, which I believe should be the core of every profession, we need to pick a profession we are excited about. I am certain that my classmates will become great at what they do because they enjoy the history, the books and the aspect of helping people find the information they need.

“Nobody remembers the teachers that were, at most, okay at teaching.”

Not everyone can love their job, but I never want to become so unhappy with what I do that it affects other people negatively. For example I’ve had teachers in the past that so clearly weren’t happy with their job that it affected the students, making us less motivated. Sure, you can pick a profession you’re not particularly passionated about and be mediocre at it, but how is that helping anyone? Nobody remembers the teachers that were, at most, okay at teaching. We remember the good ones, the ones that inspired us to become better, the ones who saw our needs and had them met. We notice the bus drivers who greets every single passenger with a smile and a hello. We remember the doctors who make us feel taken care of. We smile at the enthusiastic tour guide, the barista who made a smiley face in your coffee and the shop owner who was so passionate about what they were selling that it rubbed off on you.

I haven’t quite figured out what it is I’m passionate about yet, but now I know it’s not archiving. At least that’s something.

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The times are changing…

Once again times have changed. Summer is over, fall is slowly fading away and winter is creeping in on us, reminding us that it’s all darkness from here. At least here in Sweden we have about 4-5 months of darkness ahead of us.

Fall was brief as I spent it mostly in school. How is that going you might ask? Well I decided to drop out. Most of my family and friends are against my decision as they are afraid I’ll never get my shit together, but I just can’t deny my gut feeling that this isn’t where I’m supposed to be. Don’t ask me where I’m supposed to be though, I haven’t quite figured that one out yet. But I have a strong feeling that things will work out just fine. Now you might say that it’s better to stay in school while I figure out what to do next, but during the two months I’ve been there, I haven’t had the time or energy to think about anything else. A master’s degree is definitely not a piece of cake. Just the sheer amount of literature we have to read is crazy. It’s pretty much the same amount of books we read during ALL of high school combined. And when you realised you have no interest in the subject, getting through that literature is hell.

In other news; I am now a married woman. The month leading up to the wedding was apparently so stressful that I developed a rash all over my body and face. I had to be heavily medicated the week of the wedding and for about a week after. It wasn’t an ideal situation, but despite this and despite the rain on the wedding day itself, we couldn’t have been happier. We had a quick wedding in city hall and then a small gathering afterwards in our backyard.

The next day we flew to Italy to spend our honeymoon there. We started in Verona and then travelled to Garda lake to spend the last few days there. It was all wonderful and so much better than we could have hoped for. Verona is such a romantic city, I highly recommend going there for a honeymoon!

I can’t really come up with a great segway from here so I’ll just jump right into the present again. Yesterday I went to see Bohemian Rhapsody and it was the most amazing movie I’ve seen all year I think. The music, the story, the editing… I loved it. It somehow made me miss filmmaking, particularly script writing and editing. I left the theathre teary-eyed and inspired, even more sure of my decision to drop out of school. Even though this decision is really hard on me, I know that what I’m doing is right. I know that there is a greater purpose for me out there, as bold as it may sound.

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Update

Sooo… yeah. I haven’t been blogging or posting photos on Instagram for a couple of months now. I’ve been pretty exhausted and lost I guess. I still am. But so much has been happening, so I thought I’d give you guys and update.

In May, on my birthday, my boyfriend proposed to me. He had planned this sort of treasure hunt with clues handed to me by friends, and at the end of the hunt he went down on one knee. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him so nervous, it was adorable!

We quickly decided that we’d get married this fall and have a small party, but because of some issues with the planning we decided to elope instead. So that’s happening pretty soon…

I also recently recieved the news that I got in to that University programme I wrote about a couple of months ago. School starts in September, so I’m having a bit of time off right now.

I had a job interview a while ago and actually got offered to come in on a trial run, but my anxiety levels were so high that I panicked and called it off. I had a similar thing happen a few months ago. So now I’m basically unemployed by choice. It’s not an ideal situation, I’m very aware of that, but this year I’ve really been putting my health first. I know that I’m capable, hard-working, loyal and smart, but my mental health is just not where it should be. On top of that I decided to lower my medication, against my doctor’s recommendation, and now I feel worse. So yeah, that wasn’t very smart I guess… just the usual stubbornness I suffer from. But I’ve reached out and hope to find a good psychologist soon so I can start working on my issues.

I hope to blog more and to post some pictures, but I can’t really make any promises. Thanks to those of you who pop in here from time to time, and thanks for leaving comments! <3

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How my PMS helped me realise I’m not actually an angry, sad person

For a while now I’ve been taking antidepressants. This is something that’s been shameful to me, something I said I would never do because “I’m a strong person”. I looked down on people who couldn’t manage without them, and that is something I’m not very proud to admit. Thankfully I now no longer look at it that way.

These last couple of months have been a learning experience. Since I became a teenager up until now, I’ve had a lot of anger issues, especially around my period. I know that a lot of us with periods have this kind of problem, but for me it was so bad that I actually had a huge punching bag in my room during high school. I frequently smashed things, threw furniture, and don’t even get me started on how this affected all of my relationships. Passive agressive was my middle name. When I wasn’t angry, I was sad. And I started to identify myself as this negative, angry, sad person. My hormones were affecting my whole life, or rather INFECTING.

There’s this quote I read on Humans of New York that really spoke to me and put words on how I viewed myself.

“I’m always sad. Are there certain thoughts associated with the sadness? No, the sadness is under the thoughts. It’s like when you’re on a camping trip, and it’s really cold, and you put on extra socks, and an extra sweater, but you still can’t get warm, because the coldness is in your bones. Do you hope to get away from it? Not anymore. I just hope to come to peace with it.”

I truly believed that I would always feel this way. But something amazing happened when I started taking medication. I am suddenly a generally happy person. Not like jumping-around-with-a-huge-smile-on-my-face-singing-tunes-and-being-ridiculous-kind of happy (although that does happen), but more being thankful for what I have, trying to see everything in a positive way, and handling my relationships more carefully. It’s groundbreaking, really.

So then one day I woke up and felt… not great. I was annoyed, melancholic and somewhat anxious again. For no reason. Did the medication not work? Was the happy me just a phase? I struggled through the day when I suddenly got a notification on my phone. I have this app that tracks my period, and it reminded me that my PMS is coming up, which explained all of those negative emotions I was feeling. At first I was upset that my medication didn’t help me with my PMS issues, but I realised that there’s a distinct change in me now. There is a solid line between myself and my PMS for the first time since I got my period at 12 or 13. I am no longer my PMS. I no longer identify with my negative emotions.

For about a year I went to therapy talking about my anger issues, my negativity and sadness, and it didn’t help. Now I realised that the reason it didn’t help is because those emotions aren’t who I am. I went in there thinking that I would become a better person, learn to control the feelings and not let it get to me. But how can you change and control something that is a chemical reaction in your body?

It’s obvious to me now that there is a correlation between mental and physical health. I am not crazy, nor am I less intelligent or strong. I had a chemical imbalance in my body that made me do and feel things that I somehow started to identify with. Notice that I’m speaking in past tense. I still have that imbalance, but it is now concentrated to the week before my period. And honestly I’m so happy to experience the clear difference between everyday-me and PMS-me. My PMS helped me realise that everyday-me is not an angry, sad person.

Now don’t get me wrong, antidepressants are not the solution to every problem. I still struggle and I still have a long way to go in terms of my ongoing exhaustion that’s affecting my stress tolerance. But I know the signs now and the fact that I’m not feeling this way all the time is a huge win for me.

Turns out, the coldness is not in my bones. It’s a chemical imbalance that’s totally seperated from the person I actually am.

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“That weird part of Youtube” – The addictive spiral of videos that leave you feeling awful

You know when you go on Youtube and there’s a video recommendation that kind of stands out from the rest of your usual type of videos? They most likely have a title that draws your attention, like “My boyfriend died” or “What it’s like being allergic to water” or “I’m married to my cactus”. For some reason you have to click. And once you click, you know you’re screwed. 10 horribly depressing videos later you find yourself feeling awful, sad, anxious or just left with a weird feeling inside. So you go back to the main page, only to find that all of your regular recommendations are switched out by more horrible stories and topics that just make you feel even worse. It’s like Youtube is saying “Hey! You seemed so interested in those topics, so here! Have a look at these ones too!”. And you feel like screaming “Get me the hell out of here!”.

“I’m in that weird part of youtube again”

Often when you scroll through the comments on those videos, you find people writing “I was watching makeup tutorials, how did I end up here?” or “I’m in that weird part of youtube again”. I think we can all relate. But being a person who’s very curious and also has a compulsive need to know everything, this spiral is a dangerous rabbit hole. Once I get into a topic, I start googling more information. Reading every article, news story, blog post and comment about it. I can honestly sit for hours just reading and watching videos on the topic, and when I finally get back to reality I feel awful. And I keep feeling awful for sometimes days because of all the horrible stuff I learned.

“I’m wearing everyone else’s pain as well as my own”

I think the reason I so easily get emotionally involved is because I’m a highly sensitive person (HSP). I not only watch people tell a sad story, I can feel it. I start imagining what they went through, how it felt, what their thoughts were. This is both a blessing and a curse. It is a blessing because I have a lot of empathy for people and I care deeply. But it’s like I’m wearing everyone else’s pain as well as my own. How do you cope with this issue when every single day we are bombarded with these kinds of stories through social media and other media outlets? It’s not like I want to close my eyes and not learn about what’s happening in the world, but sometimes it just gets to me in a way that’s not healthy.

It is important to remember that it is in fact a positive thing to care and to have a need to learn. I feel like I’m feeding my brain, making my thought process more complex and interesting. But where do you draw the line between enthusiastic learning and unhealthy compulsive consumption?

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The struggle of wanting more – while being exhausted

Photo by: Victor Norgren

When I was a kid, “The Little Mermaid” was my favorite movie. It spoke to me. And it stuck with me. The feeling of being different, of not settling, of wanting to explore and do more. One of my high school teachers once told me “You seem to be a strong person. You run your own race”. It’s one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me. But in many ways the “wanting more” has made my life miserable.

To me, “more” doesn’t mean money, power or fame. It means doing something meaningful. Something that will have a positive impact on people. I have such a strong feeling that I should be doing something else. Right now, my life is all about survival. The only thing I think about is money, and how we can earn enough to get by every month. I’m making decisions based on what I think will give us a more stable future in terms of money. And it’s making me sick.

I don’t know enough about life to know if it really pays off to be a good person and work towards your dreams. But I do know that I don’t want to spend my life working a meaningless job, feeling shitty about myself every night and having anxiety 24/7. And that is why I’m in this position right now. That is why I’m on antidepressants, why I’m not employed and why we struggle to get by. And you know what? I am so grateful for everything I have at this moment. Right now I have love, I have a roof over my head, food on the table, lovely friends and family that care about me. What more could I possibly need right now that money can buy? Nothing.

But I need to find my purpose. I am and have always been an ambitious person. When I do something, I go all in, which is why I haven’t really done anything in the past year. I haven’t had the energy to go all in. I think that might be the problem with us who struggle with exhaustion – we constantly want to do more, and nothing is ever enough.

The University programme I talked about a couple of weeks ago is still on my mind. It’s not what I’ve dreamt of doing with my life. Quite frankly, most people would call this profession boring and old-fashioned. But being the ambitious person that I am, I already came up with my own ideas of how this profession could evolve into something global and groundbreaking. Because that’s who I am. I question the way things are. Which is not always welcome in the educational system, despite what you may think (but that’s a totally different story).

I’m not sure where this blog post is going, I just felt like I needed to get these things off my chest and to give you an update. I’m alive and doing pretty well in terms of my mental health. So now I’m slowly trying to stear my focus towards personal development instead of survival.

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How do you find your life purpose and choose a career?

I’ve been thinking a lot about my life purpose since the realisation that I chose the wrong path in terms of my career. A couple of weeks ago I got an idea of what I wanted to do instead, and it didn’t take me long to get things moving. I found a programme at the local University, asked around for internships and even managed to get an interview with two people who are working in that particular field. I wanted to know what I was getting myself into before I decide to apply for two more years of school. It all seemed great and I was super excited. But surprise surprise, I’m starting to doubt the whole thing now.

The applications aren’t open yet, so I haven’t made an official decision. I’m afraid that this is going to be another bad turn. When talking to the two professionals I got the sense that one of them wasn’t very happy with his job, and the reasons for it are reasons that I know will bug me as well. It’s an administrative job, often controlled by other decision-making people, and everything has to go through them. Me being a person who needs control and has an issue with authorities, might have a problem with such a business structure.

But I need money, I need to make a living, and this job would mean a steady income. That is, if I actually get a job after the studies. Cause you never know. The statistics are looking pretty okay at the moment, but a lot can change in two years. Including my mental state and feelings towards this line of work. The whole reason why I came up with the idea in the first place is because I was searching the internet for jobs that suit my introvert personality. I found this profession interesting and “easy” enough to work with my anxiety problems. But is that really the right way to go? Am I settling for less than I actually want out of life?

I’ve always wanted to have my own business. To do great things that people will acknowledge. I wanted to help and change people’s lives. I still do. But I’m not well and have no energy to attempt something greater right now. Or at least that’s what I tell myself. Maybe I’m just afraid of failure? Or stressed out about the whole money situation. Having your own business can be very rewarding on a personal level, but the money won’t exactly pile up the first couple of years. It’s tough, and you need to be mentally prepared to stick with it, even when business is bad. I guess the key is to start a business you’re really passionate about, and where you can see a sustainable future. I don’t know what kind of business that would be, and as excited as I was for that new path I started exploring, I think I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.

But then again, do we ever find what we are looking for? I think we’re all just lost souls searching for something we believe will make us happy. But happiness isn’t around the corner, it’s right here. Even if I don’t feel it all the time, I know it’s here. To me it’s not the happiness I seek, it’s the meaning. A greater belonging. A sense of fulfilment. One of my greatest fears is being basic. Wow, I’ve never actually thought of it that way… That’s exactly my problem.

I feel like this is beginning to sound like a therapy session, so I’m going to end it right here. Please comment if you have any thoughts on this. Are you also afraid of not living up to your full potential? Have you found the right path? How do you know what you are supposed to do with your life? Do you just focus on surviving and providing for your family? Is your career important to you?

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Carpe that f-ing diem – And other harmful ideas to live by

I used to believe that inspirational quotes about seizing the day, living your dream and whatnot, was a good way to keep motivated. Not that I put them on my walls or reposted them on my social media, but you know, every now and then I might have liked one that someone posted. But when you get ill, really ill, these ideas of how you should live your life just makes you feel worse. Nobody wants to hear “carpe diem!” when they’re suffering from severe depression.

I’ve spent the last week on the couch. Crying, staring out into the void, incapable of functioning like a normal person. I wasn’t even a person, I was just a body with a person trapped inside. I’ve wasted what could be precious days of my life, not seizing the day. Not working towards my goals. Not being the best that I can be. Not visualising my dreams or helping others.

But it’s not just quotes about living in the moment that get to you. You know that quote by Mark Twain; “Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do”? I often think about that by imagining myself as an old person lying in a hospital bed, reminiscing about the past. I image what my thoughts will be, if I’ll be happy with what I’ve accomplished by that time, if I’ll have any regrets. And I always feel bad about the countless days, weeks, months, years I’ve spend doing nothing because of depression, anxiety or just pure laziness. And this idea of future regret is dangerous. It’s making us focus our mind on future happiness and how we can attain it, which often makes us feel less of a person until we get there.

We need to remember that it’s okay to have bad days too. As long as those bad ones aren’t more frequent than the good or okay ones. We can’t all be living life to the fullest every single day. If you strive towards this you’ll end up disappointed. Trust me.

Here are some more realistic ideas to think about:

1. This too shall pass

I know, when you’re deep in despair it’s hard to see clearly and believe that it will ever get better. But it does. Sometimes it just takes longer. And better does not have to mean you are up and running, living up to your full potential. Better can mean getting out of bed, smiling at a stupid joke your partner made or taking a shower. Celebrate every step and give yourself some credit.

2. Appreciate the small things

Every day I am grateful for my home, my plants, my friends and my boyfriend. I take time to actually appreciate what I have. Sometimes all it takes is having potatoes for dinner, or when I ask the boyfriend to bring me some tea, and he brings me exactly the kind I was secretly hoping for.

3. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery

I am currently reading “The Power of Now”, and the most important thing I’ve learned so far is this. I spend way too much time thinking about what’s been and what will come, but the truth is that today, this moment right here, is all there is. The past cannot change, and the future is just an illusion. Think about it. No living person (physically) lives in the past, it’s impossible. So visiting the past with your mind and reliving painful moments is like spending your time at a graveyard, talking to ghosts. And you can chase the future as fast as you want, but you’ll never catch it. You will always be in the present. So try to let the illusion of time go for a moment and focus on how you are feeling right now. I’m not telling you to “seize the day”, but realise that you exist only in the present moment, and what you do with that is totally up to you.

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A neurotic minimalist’s guide to conscious shopping – How to reduce your consumption

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Conscious shopping might be a term you’re already familiar with if you’re interested in sustainability and the three Rs; reduce, reuse & recycle. I started researching this the last couple of years as my interest in environmental issues grew stronger. In this post I’ll only be talking about the minimalist part of conscious shopping, which is mainly about reducing and reusing.

I try to live a minimalistic life as much as possible. Mostly because of the clarity and peace that comes with not owning too much stuff. A messy apartment filled with junk gives me so much anxiety that I can’t get things done. It brings down my mood. So the perfect solution would be to simply not buy anything, right? Well, sadly I’m also the kind of person who needs things to be sorted and finished right away. Getting rid of things is great, it actually brings me joy. But sometimes getting rid of things that are broken or worn out means you need to replace it at some point. And wanting to be more organised sometimes requires an item or solution you don’t have. And this, this feeling of not being completely finished with the spring cleaning or organisation is something I just can’t deal with. I’m impatient when it comes to my home. Which makes me buy things more often than I can afford. Which isn’t very minimalistic. Or economic.

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Minimalism to me is not just owning what I need. Because let’s be honest here, I don’t actually NEED to have four pillows on the couch, a ton of plants and 12 identical coffee cups. These things however gives me more comfort, joy and enables me to invite all of my friends for coffee. The items themselves don’t have much value to me (except for the plants of course), but the things they represent are very important in my life (comfort, joy and friendships). Which is why the items are essential in my home.

But it’s difficult to find a balance and to establish the things that are important and the ones that aren’t. So here’s a quick list I use whenever I’m thinking of buying something and I want to make a conscious choice.

1. The purpose of the purchase

Have you thought about the item for a while, or is it just something you saw at a friend’s house, on Instagram or in the store you just happened to walk into? Is this something that will make your life easier, better or in some other way improve your situation? Is this something you WANT, something you NEED or both?

Sometimes when we need something, in my case an orginised home, we buy the cheapest, first thing we can find that does the job and gives us instant gratification. But after a while we realise it doesn’t give us any joy, and we ask ourselves why we didn’t think it through. Don’t just buy what you need. Wait until you find an item of need that you actually want.

2. Will I use this item? And if so, how often?

We’ve all been there. Buying something because you were having that themed party, because it was on sale or because you were having an anxiety attack over how unhealthy you are and how everything we eat is basically poison, so you just had to buy a juice mixer. And then you use it once, or never, and it just sits in the deepest corner of that cupboard in the kitchen that you never open. The best advice I’ve ever heard on this is to write down every time you find yourself needing this item. Keep track of how many times a month you’d wanna reach for it if you had it, and then ask yourself if it’s worth buying. This brings me to the next question.

3. Do I already have an item resembling this one, or an item I can use instead of this?

For example, I might want to get a sandwich grill. A sandwich grill might make it easier for me to make grilled sandwiches, but I might as well make them in my small oven or in a pan. Go back to (reasonable) basics and be creative! I currently use a flower pot for our washed cutlery. I made a hanging organizer for our cleaning closet with some scrap fabrics I found. And I reuse glass jars for grains, leftovers and sometimes for plants. Making something with my hands also gives me a break from worrying, it’s very therapeutic.

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4. Is this something I can borrow?

A lot of sources tell you to buy things from thrift stores instead of buying them new, but what’s even better is not buying them at all. If this is something you’re only gonna use once or every once in a while, like a screwdriver, just ask someone you know if you can borrow theirs. I know this is difficult when you, like me, have issues asking for help. If this is the case, just look up rental services. Libraries don’t just hold books nowadays. Some have tools and even everyday clothes for rent. If you can’t find a local tool rental, think about asking the library or some local shop if this is something they might consider. There is a shop here in the south of Sweden that started a free tool pool, and it’s been very successful.

5. Am I really being honest with myself here?

Nobody wins if you lie to yourself. Let’s be real. If you’ve come this far and still think you need the item, ask yourself all of the questions above once more. I usually go through the questions like 10 times even if it’s just a pair of jeans I’m thinking of getting. Think of everything as an investment. Hopefully you’re gonna have this item for a very long time, will you still love it in 3 years?

 

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To new beginnings

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I’ve thought about how to start this blog for a long time. Should I write a long introduction? A short welcome? Or perhaps just get straight to the point and skip the whole “Hello, my name is blank, cheers to new beginnings!”?

I am a wandering and constantly lost soul. Writing is something I’ve always turned to whenever I was feeling down or had some sort of struggle in my life. I used to write pages and pages of desperation, heartache, and unrational anxiety. It helped me through tough times and it made me see clearly. Later on I set goals for myself. I wrote down the things I wanted to do, the destinations I wanted to go to and how I wanted my life to be in order for me to be happy. And it worked. Somehow I managed to do most of the things I dreamt about. But then life happened. And I stopped writing.

I’m turning 30 this year. When I was younger I used to think that those 30-year-olds had it all figured out. They drank coffee, went to work, drove cars, started families… They were real grown-ups. Sorry to make you disappointed, younger self, but I have nothing figured out. Honestly I’m surprised that I’m still standing up and breathing. Not to be overly dramatic or anything.

The idea of this blog is to find a context in which I feel like my true self. To give birth to new ideas and dreams, and to share what I’ve learned along the way in hopes of helping someone else. But don’t get discouraged by what may seem like a depressing starting point. I’m going to do my best to make this place filled with inspiration, photos and the ocassional thought-provoking text.

So hey, my name is Linda. Welcome!

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